A Hidden Feelings

Well, this post is just for the mellow, brokenhearted, or easy to sad people, just call it girls.


This is actually weird for me, because i never post things like soo cry baby before, but now, my heart is on the mood baby!!! Haha -______-


Just start it.
Sebenarnya ini semua dari curhatan temen aku yang paling baik, tomboy, jail, dan keren se-Karimun TIYARA NURUL RIZKI (hope you can read this LOL) yang bilang dengan aku tadi sore :


"Fih, hari ini aku sedih kali, rupanya si ****** suka ama **** ama **** T_T"


Honestly, it hurts me up when i read this text, she just repeat my life a year ago. Suka ama seseorang, kita pendam berhari-hari, berbulan-bulan, bahkan bertahun-tahun, dengan mimpi agar DIA dapat melihat sedikit ke arah kita, cuma hanya bisa berbentuk mimpi setelah kita mengetahui kenyataannya.

Aku mengerti kenapa temen aku ini tidak mau mengungkapkan perasaannya kepada dia.
Aku mengerti kenapa temen aku ini harus memendam hatinya.
Dan aku juga mengerti kenapa teman aku ini berpura-pura senang di hadapan orang lain.


Cause that's me before.
The girl who always have a tons of dream and hope, but can't make it to the reality.
The one who always keep her feelings in front of the people.
The one of secret admirer in this world.

Alasan kenapa aku bisa menjadi seorang pencolek pengagum rahasia?


Sejak kelas 4 SD, aku suka ama seorang cowok di kelasku. Namanya ****** ************ (a privacy). I didn't know why i like that guy. Maybe he's cute, cool, nice, and gentle. So, when i had to go to Batam to join my dad (that means i should leave Karimun), i can't held a goodbye time with him. Selama di Batam, i just thought about him, him, and him. Until i came back again to Karimun when i'm in 7th grade.


One day, in sport competition, i had met him again. And yeah, he's more cool than before. And he has a LOT of silat skills. But, when i said 'Hi' to him, he didn't know me anymore. And from that on, i'm sure he can't be in my hope anymore.
Or 1 of my dreams is broke.


Kalau kita kenali lagi, menjadi pengagum rahasia sangat tidak enak. Kita seperti kayak orang yang merindukan pacar yang semu. Yang hanya ada di dunia kita. The guy who appears in everywhere.
Dan ini sering kali kita melupakan hal yang nyata, realistis, dan konkrit.

So, the message from me :


Hidupkan harapan kita. Munculkan mimpi kita. Selalu yakin dengan pikiran kita. Don't hide your feelings for too long, cause as time goes by, our feelings will always join the time.




Love, peace, and heart!!!